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Actaeon

“A deer is at my feeder”: The first words I see This morning. I know the deer: He has traveled from a pellucid spring Across the snow-covered mountains Of sleeping imagination Through fields Thick with the tall grasses of hope Across swift-moving rivers of endless work That nevertheless pool around  The fallen stars of the Little Dipper To the intersection of our lives In the soft and warm sand Pulled by time into the sea To stand alone, vast and open and sunny. Will he drink from your birdbath? I wonder. I watch the fearless hunter Actaeon In my imagination. I watch Artemis the hunter. “She stomped her feet in warning. She turned on the security lights.” Stay away, her falling feet Demanded.   You watched. We watch. Who is the hunter? The hunted? Naked beauty--all power and grace. Earth vibrates under your footfall. We will watch. Let the dogs come.

Medusa

Never before you compared My frozen image  On your computer screen To Medusa Have I heard myself Compared to an accursed and ugly woman  With the power To turn men to stone. While the problem might be Your limp Internet connection, I cannot help but hear You tell me I am ugly. At the same time, though, I think all you know of Medusa Is that she was ugly.  I, on the other hand, know Medusa got it on with Poseidon And gave birth to Pegasus. I know also  That Athena, Who helped Perseus kill Medusa, Also gave her healing blood To Asclepius. There’s more to say about Medusa, Whom you find ugly, Like me. But I am not the frozen image On your computer screen. Also, I have no power Over any man. A stone is a stone. Know your heart. I will wash my hair. Look away.

Ready

The dogs  Curl their bodies  Tight against The strangely mild winds And a waning moon That robbed them Of sleep all week As it called them To the edge of my bed, Alert, upright, Ready to howl To their brothers and sisters The fact of their being Right here and now. I have not slept, either. I am ready for the song, Ready to be here now, To trade darkness for a star.

Thinking of Mom on My Birthday

Sleet, snow, ice: Silence falls. A white emptiness, A sleep That envelopes everything Right down To the last squirrel To the last robin. Nothing to see here. Nothing to claim. Close your eyes. Rest. Between each drop, Peace, eternity. The quiet breathing Of the ages. Everyone, everything Is here.

Cashmere Coat

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The label in This camel's hair wraparound coat-- Is “100 percent cashmere” To be “professionally cleaned only.” Your dress coat For as long as I can recall (And today I am 53) Always looked smart on you. Dad said he bought it for you Because you had one in high school. Tradition: What once we did So we do now. I wore your coat to the city And to the opera. I put one of your brooches on the lapel. On the train, I took off the coat and wore it like a blanket. Breathing it in, I swear I could smell The clean of your perfume Combined with so many years in a closet. Though I am two inches Taller than you ever were The jacket is loose on me Just a bit. This makes sense to me, Mom. I could never fill your shoes, Let alone your dress coat. Wearing it, Walking to Radio City From Grand Central Station, I remembered how much You loved the city. It was a bitter day, Though bright and blue, But I was warm Because of you. I think it has always bee

Bean Mocs

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After Mom passed on November 4, my father told me I could take her shoes.  There was a lot to take--from new white Keds to heeled leather boots to slippers--and I took them, taking some comfort in holding her things and imagining her presence.  It took a day, but I tried on all her shoes, and they fit.  I also discovered that her shoes have the same kind of wear as mine.  It was something. The footbed of your mocs Molded over time to The exact shape Of your solid, sure feet. These shoes are old, Mom. The soles are worn to the stitches. The leather is dull After years and years Of your wearing them In the garden. They are mine now, My inheritance: Shoes for work Shoes worn from work Shoes that stand the test of time. I slide them on: The footbeds cradles My solid, square feet. I take a few steps And feel the perfect fit In your shoes, Mom. I swear I walk faster in these, Zooming the way you always did To do all the living you could In a day In the garden.

Come, Aurora

A tentative step A soft look Warm breath Clouding cool morning air, The deep wood, Dark, still So full of Sleeping, dreaming Forms of life Under the moon Drifting farther And farther away Pressed by the sun Out of the bluing sky To a far corner Of this small universe And then: A tentative step A soft look, Warm breath: A deer steps to the edge of the road From the deep wood. Here is the day.

Blessing the Earth That Is Your Mother

Day stirs from still sleep And whispers Come here, close to me Through the grey mist And soft light. Walk softly. Take your time. You are a whisper so soft The deer are unafraid. Stay among them. Hear them tear at the grasses. They surround you As they graze. They claim you In a dream. Their soft breath Lifts you to the top Of white pines That are black yet In this grey light. Drift, gentle spirit, Above the river The light of the river Is not the sun but your soul Blessing you As you bless the earth That is your mother The light flows With the water To the lake And beyond Ultimately To the sea That will ever be  Our home As it was So we go Let yourself dissolve Into the rain That becomes everything Again and again.

Amphitrite

In the darkness, I am alone and feeling This storm that shakes my earth. I am thinking of Poseidon And how he desired a woman For her beauty and the way she danced; How he waited for her When she fled him, running to Atlas As he held the line between order and chaos; How he sent a dolphin To rescue her into his arms And out of her terror Of the world beneath the waves-- A place perhaps like this one in its torrential dark That makes me unknown and naked to myself; How Poseidon, mighty earthshaker, God of horses and the unfathomable sea, Gave her time that she might choose him, too; How he waited for her Until she could see herself as his queen-- Yet who remembers her name? Feeling the close-moving thunder in this enveloping dark, I imagine the golden chariot, those glorious horses, The rhythm of the waves driving Poseidon and Amphitrite.

January 2019

Stars melt. Their cold celestial fires Liquefy, flowing from the sky To cold streams in the winter woods, Their movement over rocks The only sound on a day Whose stillness and solitary quiet Predict snow. I hear it. You hear it.  Snow falls. The river flows. Passions burn Slowly, quietly, and still Without asking permission. Without asking your attention. They are here, And they will claim you. They wait as you wonder  About the snow, How it might mix with the stars To flow where it will, Where it will flow, How it will rise to a new star.